My wound ached.
So circling around, a quiet dance, we became one.
The ache remained.
So I drank to numb it.
But it came back.
So I bought new clothes to hide it.
But it came back.
I ate bags of chips to satiate it.
But it came back.
I took sleeping pills to forget about it.
But it came back.
I binge-watched show after show to erase it.
But it came back.
I tried to bandage it myself day after day after day after day.
But it came back.
I worried.
But it came back.
I tried to ignore it.
But it came back.
I got angry and blamed my husband.
But it came back.
I yelled and screamed at anyone who came near me.
But it came back.
I read page after page of book after book with solutions.
But it came back.
So I finally relented in my pain
knowing it would come back.
So I held it
as it came back.
I accepted it as a permanent part of my flesh
and the ache came back though softer.
I owned it.
and it came back whispering in the lonely night.
I relented.
and my wound became my peace.
I prayed and finally gave up
and it grew lighter.
I was grateful.
and I moved on.